I'm tired of being nice.

These days of banning, and laws allowing excuses for a man to kill dogs I'm tired. I do not want to be nice and reasonable anymore. Apparently doing so doesn't get you heard. It gets you downright ignored. So no, I'm not going to say points I'm just going to belittle you into submission, and I make you see it my way.

There will be no if, ands, or butts.

That is how I felt all day.

Always on my Mind

Some days I wonder, how I'm going to put a rescue center together. With only my friends supporting because my parents tell me, "While noble you need a real job." But, how can I perform a real job when all I think about is  rescue. I think I have it figured out to where I can have a rescue be self staining while still being non-profit.

But, I need land to do it, and the more I think on it, the bigger my projects get. I think I've settled on a number of acres. But how do you even start? What do I do? I don't even know what I can do for now to push it a long. My mind races all the time with the how's and the what's. I work in a call center like place, and on the slow days I have notebooks which I keep at my desk to fill in my ideas about this, that, and the other thing. But my notebook is all dedicated to my rescue/dog park center. And my other notebook for my soon to be club.

But, there are days when my mind races and I get headaches and try to stop it from thinking so much. But when I do, that's when I ask myself, "How is this going to get started? With what money? Are you sure you can do this?" My mind fills with doubt. But my need to save animals keeps me at my sharing and cross sharing animals in need to find them homes.

It's the ones that stand out that make you realize you are needed and even though the road is hard, I can not and won't give up.

              To the family that didn't make it. I'm so sorry I could not save you. RIP.

Been a While

Since my last blog a lot has happened. Gotten sick, taken on two jobs, and starting to realize my dream of my own animal rescue. Even though I put in my two weeks at job number one, that doesn't mean my animal efforts will fail. Quite the contrary, they are alive and in full swing.

Today was an eye opener in a way of helping animals. I was talking to a manager about shelter pets and some of the worst shelters I've seen. He didn't know some animals are still gassed to death and how long they take to die, or about puppy mills. However, the real win was I explained to him that just by having a facebook, you could do more to help animals. He was in shock, to say the least.

But for my eye opener, it makes me sad, but a refresher for why I am doing this. I know what kind of animals I'm rescuing, the types of buildings I need, what/how I need to work it. But now, it's the "How in the world do I start?" Well, I know step one, getting the word out there of what I need to do. I already have friends willing to volunteer their time and donate money. But first, I need land, and lots of it.

Sometimes we have to start at the very bottom, but I need to try. For the furbabies.

                                      RIP Little ones. I'm sorry I could not save you.

                                                                   I failed you.