Always on my Mind

Some days I wonder, how I'm going to put a rescue center together. With only my friends supporting because my parents tell me, "While noble you need a real job." But, how can I perform a real job when all I think about is  rescue. I think I have it figured out to where I can have a rescue be self staining while still being non-profit.

But, I need land to do it, and the more I think on it, the bigger my projects get. I think I've settled on a number of acres. But how do you even start? What do I do? I don't even know what I can do for now to push it a long. My mind races all the time with the how's and the what's. I work in a call center like place, and on the slow days I have notebooks which I keep at my desk to fill in my ideas about this, that, and the other thing. But my notebook is all dedicated to my rescue/dog park center. And my other notebook for my soon to be club.

But, there are days when my mind races and I get headaches and try to stop it from thinking so much. But when I do, that's when I ask myself, "How is this going to get started? With what money? Are you sure you can do this?" My mind fills with doubt. But my need to save animals keeps me at my sharing and cross sharing animals in need to find them homes.

It's the ones that stand out that make you realize you are needed and even though the road is hard, I can not and won't give up.

              To the family that didn't make it. I'm so sorry I could not save you. RIP.